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I. Fucking. Did. It *repost*

This is a repost. I lost my site and a couple posts in the process. So this is directly from my phone with no edits. sorry

 

I did it.
I’m happy.
I have absolutely everything I want in life.
I won.
10:50pm
My life is currently that moment that Will Smith walked out of the building after getting the job in Pursuit of Happyness
<insert picture>
*sip*
See, that’s why I do this. I saw that picture and got so emotional.

It’s been a hell of a fucking five years man. It was around this time 5 years ago when all this started.

My dad went to the doctor because he wasn’t feeling right and it was all down hill from there.
*sip*
Just about the only thing I have left from then is my car and a few things I kept for futures sake.

I can’t believe I’m typing this yanno?
I still go back and read all the shit I wrote from those days. I shouldn’t be here man.. I am though. I can’t believe it.

These past couple weeks have been endless, man.
I accepted the life of the perpetual struggle. I accepted that I’d always be trying to catch up.

I don’t write much anymore… I suppose I’m too busy living. Idk
*sip*

I’m doing the coolest shit in life right now and I just can’t shake this feeling that I just can’t identify.
<insert video of la trip>

I think that I’m so used to struggling and picking up the pieces that recognizing that I’m no longer in that place is has gotten a little overwhelming.
Overwhelming is the only word I have for all this
*sip*
Fuck I’m feeling a little drunk. Let’s see where this goes!

Lately I’ve been describing this phase as kind of a Jessie Pinkman phase but without the depression.
<pinkman gif>

I have everything I absolutely need right now and absolutely nothing holding me back.
I feel like maybe it’s too soon? I don’t know man. I need a fckn hobby but I’m so lazy anymore. It’s been a LONG five years. Even last year, which was perfect was just me getting used to this new life. Now I’m here and I’m planning out all of the cool shit that I’m gonna do but right here, right now….

*pause for more sips while I gather my thoughts

<insert half drank drink>
Halfway home.

11:30pm

Meh. Fck this. I’m done writing for tonight. L8r days. Love you <3

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Commennnttt!!!

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